List of my favorite/most played songs at the moment in no particular order:

1.) "You Don't Know Me"--Michael Bublé
2.) "All Night Long"--Empires
3.) "When It Rains (Live)"--Paramore
4.) "I Can't Read You"--Daniel Bedingfield
5.) "Heavy Lies the Crown"--The Scene Aesthetic
6.) "Love Drunk"--Boys Like Girls
7.) "Looking Up"--Transmit Now

LFO tonight! haha I'm excited. They were not the most popular of all the boy bands, but they made fun music that reminds me of being a kid and just having fun.

Warped on Thurs., and I'm sending an email to Mercy Mercedes about helping them with promoting at Warped, and hopefully they will still need some help for my date. It's pretty much about getting in free, but I have a ticket, so I can just help them to get exposure, it's cool. They are a really good band and I don't mind. You get to hang at their tent, so that's cool too. :)

Still wondering if I want those Blink 182 tickets or not for Aug. It's the only show on the line-up I have for summer that I don't have tickets for because I'm still on the fence about it all. Eh, we shall see I guess, I will still have to see what's available and all that and if it's worth it to go with what seats are left because I don't want to do lawn.

Anyone going to any cool shows/tours? I'm just looking for some other shows I could go to this summer besides blink, american idol and warped, which I know about already. Just need some ideas if anyone has any. :)

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Oreo got his rabies vaccination updated today.

Oooohman. I'm only halfway through the 2hour finale of Harper's Island, and my heart is going crazy. ;0;
This is probably due to lack of sleep, too though.

SINCE I worked 9hours and right after walked to the movie theater and saw Public Enemies. So much love (sidenote:ASPIDERISONMEFREAKOUTONO) for Depp and Bale. Oh man so much love.
But wow it was loud. D:' Plus it's like, come on. Even I can shoot better than some of those "hardened criminals". If you have a tommy-gun, and there's a cop standing in front of you, you shoot IN FRONT of you. Not swaying all over side to side.
Man. Movies make my life. I can't imagine being able to function without my 2.5hour escapes from reality. ):


I feel much better than yesterday. People at work thought so too. Sandy was like "Good, I was worried. It was like talking to a zombie yesterday." ):
Now since I was so sick and out of it yesterday I'm afraid to take my medicine at all...I can't wait for monday so I can call my doctor.

Also, idk if I mentioned, but bitchy-manager had called me on my day off telling me I should apply for the junior's supervisor. Yesterday she did nothing but rave about how great I am. Today she was all buddy buddy. I skipped out before filling out the paper work, though. Mostly because it would have to be a super good pay increase for me to afford living here, still. PLUS it would mean I'd have to start to care at work. Plus it would mean twice the work twice the hours and I already spend too much time there.
I don't know. I don't think I can stand staying at Kohl's much longer without killing myself. I'm serious. That place is so emotionally draining. During my vacation, my heartrate normalized, I felt more energetic, my skin cleared up, I just felt more hopeful and such. Then as soon as I get back everything crashed. My skin is the worst thing about work. I just know it's working there that's stressing me out so much that I'm breaking out like I never did during puberty. ):

I dunno. I don't really want to live with my parents...and Abe. Actually, if it was just Mom+Dad, I'd be cool. But Abe is having issues and that's a whole 'nother set of worries and stress that I just don't think I should have to deal with.
But. But I don't want to be in Buffalo. Especially if I'm alone. And Vermont is new and different. And maybe I just need a new setting. Maybe that's what I need to start to get better. ): But I can't afford anywhere else...


I'm going to finish Harper's Island. Probably go omgomgomgomgflipoutomgomgomg a while after. Go to bed. Wake up work 7hours tomorrow. Tomorrow night I WILL go to the gym (I've skipped the last three nights). And I have From Hell from NetFlix to watch.
Monday I have off. I'm sleeping as long as my body will let me. Then I will wake up and job hunt like a maniac.
And probably go to Starbucks because that makes me a happy Grace.

btw I didn't get vacation pay for the last week of my vacation. So I don't know how that's going to pan out either.


Chances are I'll be here for September if I still have the house. I'm going to need to have Ria switch bills into my name, and I guess I might have to go without furniture if her family is taking it all.

I am drinking Rum and Diet Cokes and watching Margaret Cho's "Beautiful" tour because I am semi-depressed about going down a cup size, and also I accidentally saw my dad's balls today and getting drunk seemed like a better choice than vomiting continuously for the rest of my life.

On the plus side, my breasts are infinitely firmer now that I'm on birth control. Unfortunately, nobody is ever going to see them ever again unless I have another beach accident where I get attacked by a wave and reveal my nips to anyone looking on.

doctors doctors everywhere. man, i'm sick of seeing them all. doctors for me. doctors for mark. doctors for the dog. insanity, says i.

rocky horror floor show tonight. i do wish i could go.

fingerless gloves are on the needles again. i've got two more pair to do now. my own gloves for the wedding, and some for mark to have at work. apparently he sits under a vent and his hands get cold.

why is the rum gone?

the humidity outside is simply unreal. i can hardly breathe when the front door is opened.

I know I don't write as much as I used to. Is anyone still reading what I DO write?

I am off, as per tradition, to Newport.

If you happen to go to a 7-Eleven today, please report to me the following:

a) Did the store recognize 7-Eleven with free 7.11oz Slurpees?
b) When you wished the clerk a happy 7-Eleven, did the clerk know what you were talking about?

As you were.

One thing at my doctor's appointment with the PA is that my bloodwork showed that my white-cell count is below average. I'm at 3.2, while you should be at a 4.
All this really means is I have to get more bloodwork done in a few weeks. ):

I feel like total shit and I'm just going to go passout. I can't take this medicine and do stuff that's not sleeping. It just doesn't work. x_x

Sooo I had a dream last night that like, me and Adam Lambert were bff's and he told me I was a good singer and all this other mish mosh stuff. It was funny, seeing as I was always all Idontlikehimhesucks when I was watching Idol. Now that it's over I'm actually really getting into his voice and all that. Not that I never thought he was talented before, but I just really wanted Kris to win...haha. Now that he did, there is no competition and I can freely like Adam, ha. I may have also -possibly- developed a small, tiny crush on him. Not that it matters (in a lot of ways ha) but, yeah. So, that's that.

Getting my LFO and Warped Tour tickets tomorrow. LFO is on Sunday and Warped is this coming Thurs. Yay! Going to a lot of shows is fun, I need to start getting to more, I miss it. I haven't been to nearly as much as last year, so it's cool to have a few to look forward to.

Ughhh it's hot today, and humid. Sleeping is probably going to suck. We have air conditioning in the living room but not the bedrooms, and we haven't turned it on yet for this summer anyway. Trying to wait as long as possible so it isn't always running. I guess I should get a fan for my room, cause this is the kind of weather I hate, especially to sleep through. Blucckkkk. :(

Ok, all for now.

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I'm looking for female psychologists in NOVA...or DC. I just need someone really good because I've gone through a lot of them and they just haven't stuck. I am paying out of pocket so that plays a small factor, but if there's a really good doctor that is a little pricier please pass that on as well...thank you :)

Jacoby steals home safely, Jacoby gets called out.

Jacoby throws his helmet, Jacoby gets kicked out. (Which, okay, that happens. That's the rule.)

Obviously it looked close, replay is shown. From a zillion angles. CLEARLY JACOBY IS SAFE.

I'm sorry, but the umpires have gone over replays to reexamine calls for WAY LESS.

HE WAS SAFE.

Oh I am angry.

Complete with Jessface

Not sure about the beast part,but I think it helps my sanity, music that is.
I have my fifth live concert this month tonight. I leave everyone feeling way better then when I started out. The good thing about tonight is its just across the Hudson from me, about twenty minutes. I love the drive home when its just a cruise.
I just noticed how long its been since I said anything here,but its been all writing,not just here. I just havent been able to make myself put anything down. When I do it just magnifies my feelings of isolation. It used to make me sane. Things are cyclical tho, it will probably swing back to writing before long. I should probably just make myself write in fact. I'll think about it.
Now its music tho and tonight its Hey Monday, something new. I like new and shiny, alot.

So guys. Tell me what's new? How are you guys? What's up in the life of my f-list.

Bring me the good and bad, y'all. ♥

Post unlocked and anonymous turned on, just in case.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, carnality, YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.

JK, ILU. Happy twentieth. ♥ I hope you get crunk in the name of all twenty year olds.